Pain to Pleasure – a life renewed
This is my true story.
It is about how I turned, in a single day, from depression, stress, anger, pills, addictions, to freedom,
relaxation, energy, vibrancy, a purpose, excellence. Now, 3 years later, I am living my dream and bringing hope to thousands
of people, Igniting the HERO within all.
My journey to a new life started at the end of 2011. I’ve had haemophilia (an genetic condition in which the blood
has difficulty in clotting) since birth and as the years went by, my condition got to a point where I was in a really bad emotional and physical state. I went from depression, to stress, to drinking a handful of pain pills each day. I was taking up to 10 pain and 20 other pills each day. It was as if suddenly I couldn’t cope with pain, depression and stress. As if that wasn’t enough, I needed to get both elbows replaced (I had
an arm brace for six months(some started calling me terminator with the brace on) and my doctor said I couldn’t pick up anything heavier than 2kg/5pounds), and both my ankles needed to get fused or get replaced, The Dr said my future will be in a wheelchair and will have to accept it. That wasn’t even the end of my medical problems: I was also found out that I have hepatitis C and was given a choice go onto transplant list or go on treatment. So I went on hepatitis C treatment that made me sick (some of the symptoms are like those from chemotherapy you get very sick,depressed,don’t eat etc). As a haemophiliac, I used some 20-40 ampules, each of 1 000 units of a blood-clotting factor, each month. Without such treatments a simple cut or bruise could be extremely painful and even life-threatening.
With all this hanging over me, I came to a defining moment at a seminar, and I told myself something has to change. I thought: ‘I’m dying.’ This is where I discovered how powerful we as human beings truly are and how uniquely we are made. It was then that I had my first experience fire-walking. Even beginning of this year my blood sugar went high and Dr wanted me to get treated to be safe so that I don’t get diabetes, even my blood pressure was high reaching a high of 200 / 120.
Seek & you will find
Whatever you seek you will find, whatever you ask you shall receive. I have discovered this to be true. I have learnt that you need to renew your mind every single day. Through a self-development course I was set free and discovered that anything is possible and what my dreams truly are. From walking on fire more than 550 times without any burns, walking up to 20m on a coal bed at 650ºC, I have moved on to board and brick breaking with my elbows against the doctors orders, arrow breaking with my throat and rebar bending, as well as broken glass walking without bleeding, and needle piercing through my hand without bleeding and walking with Lions. I have gone from being a near cripple/disabled to leading what you might consider something like a ‘Superman’ life a Hero on a Hero’s Journey. I have gone from 150kg to 118kg (lost 32kg) and I now take 4-8 1 000 factor blood clotting units a month (a fifth of what I was using before) and only about one pain pill every second week. My life has been transformed from where I previously couldn’t jump, to the present in which I can jump several centimetres into the air. I have no arm brace any longer and, of all the improvements in my health, the best result of all is that I can now pick up my son and hold him in my arms and even my second son. That alone brings tears of happiness to know that I also can bond with my both my sons.
For thousands of years and in all cultures, shamans have walked across hot coals to honour the element of fire and bring healing to their communities. In modern times, it is crucial that we actively reclaim our own innate power to heal ourselves and direct our destiny, to move from acting from fear into a place where each action is based out of love and joy.
a Question if you cut your finger who heals that? do you go to doctor do you pray or do you belief G-d made you so powerful that your body can start the Healing process by it self. Also whatever we ask we will receive, what we focus is where to our energy flows.
Ritual & transformation
Ritual marks a time of change and transformation. To witness or participate in a fire-walking ritual offers a chance to break limiting belief systems, and provides participants with the tools to make the shifts you want in your life to happen and to stick. Whether you choose to
walk or not, at the end of the fire-walking seminar, you will be changed for good. There are just a few times in our life when we are offered a ‘square centimetre of chance’; a gift to completely transform our lives. For me – and apparently many others too – the firewalk is such an opportunity. Joining in as a participant in this ancient, sacred gathering opens us up to deep healing and change – and offers the
chance to dance with the fire of life.
Dancing the Fire
It is one of the first lessons we learn as children: fire burns. And for many of us this lesson goes in very deeply, and includes not only the sting of physical fire, but also translates into a fear of the fire of our own passions, desires and dreams. Firewalking is one of the oldest
human rituals on the planet. In every culture around the world, people have used firewalking as a means of healing and purifying their communities and themselves. Today, firewalking is an incredible tool for modern humans to use.
Moving Beyond Fear
“FEAR IS NOT REAL. THE ONLY PLACETHAT FEAR CAN EXIST IS IN OUR THOUGHTS OF THE FUTURE. IT IS A PRODUCT OF OURIMAGINATION CAUSING US TO FEAR THINGS THAT IS NEAR INSANITY.
DO NOT MISUNDERSTAND ME DANGER ISVERY REAL BUT FEAR IS A CHOICE” – WILL SMITH
Our fear of fire is a deep-seated belief, one of the core players in our belief system. The first time I watched someone step onto the 650ºC coals, I felt something snap. Suddenly one of my core beliefs had been turned upside down, bringing down virtually all my other beliefs
with it. The possibility of creating serious change in my life was so tangible at that moment, because the structures within my brain had been shattered. I had actually witnessed what I knew was impossible. There was nothing for my constructs about reality to do but crumble.
As a rule, we don’t enjoy our mental constructs crumbling – it feels very threatening and dangerous. Our ego loves being right, having things be safe. Whenever something is not safe for the ego, it pumps out a wave of fear to deter us from changing in any way that goes
against its self image. And fear, as most of us know, is a powerful human emotion. However, I’ve found through my 3 years of
firewalking and teaching that fear can actually be a great friend. Even after 500 plus firewalking sessions, I still feel that initial rush of fear as I step up to the fire. But I’ve learned to take the fear and see it as simply energy. We can all take the energy of our emotions – any emotions – and by seeing them simply as energy we can use them to support us rather than hinder us on our path. With practice, it is simple to find a place of silence within, take a deep breath, and transform the fear into excitement and joy. The next time you feel fear rise in your life, tell yourself: ‘This is simply energy. This is simply energy.’ With that awareness, you can make a choice about how you want this particular energy to work in your life. You can definitely use it to stop you in your tracks. You also have the choice to take your deepest fears and transform them into impetus for change. Know that your belief system was inherited from your parents, and may not necessarily be true. The firewalk can bring these beliefs to the light.
Fire as Teacher
Walking across 20m of coals, I savour each step as I watch my feet move across the fire. I feel like I am walking above the clouds of Texas. Even when doubts come up in my life, I always go back to that moment on the coals; the feeling of total communion with the fire, a
perfect marriage of my soul and the coals. Fire continues to teach me everyday – when I meditate with a flame; when I burn myself on the stove and laugh that I can walk on coals but when I’m not paying attention will burn myself on a frying pan; when I feel passion within my body and act on it. The fire has taught me to honour the flames within myself and walk through all the firewalks in my life.
Because for each of us, the real firewalk, the real challenge, is to live our lives fully, with purpose and joy. It is so hard to convey what happens in a firewalking session to someone who hasn’t been there and done that.
To some it might seem crazy, even – or some sort of trick. But it is neither. I remember this experience: light misting rain haloes
our bodies in the darkness as we circle around the red glistening coals wearing our shoes loosely on our feet. We hold hands and chant, energy buzzing my fingers, shaking my knees against the backdrop of a hush of silence, and we all stare at the centre, a thick layer of burning charcoal chunks, 4m by 3m of contained fire to prove the impossible is possible. I look at Lori, standing solidly next to me, not knowing what to expect. In her eyes I see, even if none of us walk, even if we leave with our feet still cold from this wet grass, we are changed. And then the first woman steps-forward, quiet, curly-haired – monica. ‘She is going first?’ I think, as with slow grace she stands before the fiery challenge. This seems a dream, a vision as she bows respectfully to the impossible, raises her arms to her side proud as a gymnast and walks across the coals. She walks across the coals! I see her feet touch the fire I see her feet swallow the coals. I see! And I am crying and laughing, feeling my cold feet tingle. This is the power and the spirit of the life-changing firewalk. If only everyone could know for themselves the power of the fire, its capacity to teach us about ourselves and our true potential; its capacity to instigate change
within us that in turn allows us to heal, even from genetic disorders and severe long-term disease; its near-magical ability to make our lives whole again. If only.
3years Later
To think how fast 3years has passed. As I pack now to go back to where it all started I have a feeling of excitement and feeling nervous as I am about to receive my Master Firewalk Certificate. Just to think and Imagine 3years ago I was there with Charles/Matt/Greg/Kevin/Monica/Lori/Hazem/Roberto/luis and I became the second trained Instructor from South Africa and now I am going there to receive the First and only Master Certification for Africa. How awesome is that!
